Oh, before i forget, print the voucher below and head to GSC Paradigm Mall to get Free Movie ticket. One voucher for two free tickets and can only redeem maximum of four tickets for each person. Only selected movies. HURRY! Redeem in between 16th June till 20th June 2012!!

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Humanity

Saturday, 9 June 2012 • 1:22:00 pm • 0 comments

Hello again.

Weekend is finally here.

But i can smell busy week(s) soon.

Alright, as i highlighted on my entry's title. HUMANITY. Of cos.

Why am i highlighting on humanity?

What do i know about humanity?

Simple. I grew up with all kind of humanity. I came across the nice one, the nasty one, the hypocrite and the list goes on. It will never end even till you are dead burying six feet down the earth. Through out my 21years old of life, i came across many things in life. Done something i never thought of doing it even when i was 16 or maybe 18. For the very first time in life, i went for a Brazilian Wax early this year. 99 out of 100 women are doing Brazilian Wax every 3-4months once. Nothing to be shame about. Only those with conservative mind would think it is something ridiculous to do so. I blogged about it and i was proud of myself for doing/undergo Brazilian Wax but some people dont think so. Those some people often giving comments saying " Eeeewwww, how can you wax your pubic area." or "Freaking geli lor, you wax your down there." 

HELLO people with a very low EQ. This is absolutely normal to begin with.

Let me ask you. Why do you shave your armpit or maybe your leg? Proud with it and leave it naturally like that instead of going over Watson/Guardian to get your waxing strips or shave cream. Women/ladies/girls who thinks Brazilian Wax is something ridiculous, you are definitely super wrong. Even guys went for Boyzillian Wax. Come out from your dark cave and start exploring what amazing things that you can do with your life. No just sit there and day dreaming about your education or career. Life is short. Do whatever you can as long as it is not illegal. Go for bungee jumping or sky-diving. 

Learn how to cook a simple and proper meal. Learn stitching or knitting or sewing. Set up fund raising team and go fund raising around the neighbourhood and donate it to the charity. Not just sit in front of your laptop and tv everyday watching JPOP/KPOP/CPOP/EPOP/MPOP/IPOP or whatsoever POP you have in the list. Do something meaningful or outrageous. Have an oversea trip with your friends or whoever that wanna tag along.

I cant understand why people often thinks Brazilian Wax is something dirty. It is for hygiene. Even you are giving birth to your healthy child, nurse will still shave your pubic area because they are afraid of bacteria infection or some other possibilities that might risk you during the surgery. Be open-minded. See the world and not hiding under a shell.

Note: Hello unwanted stalker(s) in my blog. If you are reading this entry, i am not talking about you. Don't be so sensitive and paranoid on whatever things that i posted online. Well, i don't think i need to explain much to unwanted stalker(s). They are just plain ridiculous unwanted stalker(s) who like to mess up people's life. But, still thank you for visiting my blog once in a blue moon or everyday i presume. Have a nice weekend ahead. :)

Labels: Experiences, Lessons, Life

Brand New Sem :)

Tuesday, 5 June 2012 • 2:09:00 pm • 0 comments

Hello readers/invisible readers/stalker/unwelcome stalker,


Kick start with a brand new month with a brand new year.
It's already June if you noticed.
Time flies real fast which i cant even catch up. Gosh.
Started uni again after a year. Phew!
Resolutions for this year :)
Not getting too close with people around in university and ignore those people who are such an eyesore for me perhaps i am eyesore for them too *trollface* but I am still okay with it because I am here to pursue my studies and not to discuss about how people dress and how people behave or maybe how people blog or update their status. I am going with the flow. Study is my major aim. Other than that, I am not interested to know nor to care about. 
Oh and by the way, if you are feeling paranoid right now, dont be. I am talking about every human on this world who are being so ridiculous to discuss about people behind them. IF, you are not doing it then just ignore what i wrote here. Thank you very much. You will be blessed :)
One semester 6 subjects. I hope i can cope with that. Not wanting to fail for any subjects.
Printed most of the notes for this upcoming week. Looking forward for more challenges.
Managerial Maths, i hope you will be nice to me. It is only 6 topics. I am sure i can master you this semester.


Before i elaborate more on this week, last week was a bliss to me.
Catch up with people back home though some close friends are not around. Blame MMU for not having the same holidays as public uni. Rusheni, came back on my last week in BM. Hang around and catch up with some stories with her. Updating ourselves. Eventhough she is in KL and staying so damn close to me but we hardly meet up. Either she is busy or i am. Was so happy that she gave me a lovely bracelet. Love it so much because there is a ribbon on it which i adore much. She knows me the best :)
Not to forget Cherrie and Joshua. Both were working in CBTL but I resigned and Cherrie replaced me after that. So, i just got to know her on that day i met her in Starbucks along with Joshua. Nice meeting her though. Funny and hyper girl. Eldest of us all. I am the youngest. LOL
She is going back Aussie to continue her Master in Mass Comm. It is nice to meet her.
Joshua, such a pain in the ass. Forever quiet. Awkward much because i have to find topic to talk.
Cousin was so nice. She took me out for movie. Watched Snow White and the Huntsman. Her treat.
I realised, to be happy you dont need lotsa friends. All you need is just a few of them because they can make you happy compared to having lotsa friends around.


Learned alot from the brother. He told me that he lost two close friends in two years. How sad right but he still make his life awesome with his family,cousins, girl friend and best friend. You see, you dont need lotsa people to cherish you. Only a few of them is more than enough. :)


Gave up with human nature.

Labels: Family, Friends, Life, University

The Past

Sunday, 27 May 2012 • 9:58:00 am • 0 comments

After a days of thoughts on what she wrote on her blog, i was dumbfounded. 
I realised that what are friends to her and what are friends to me.
Sometimes people tend to be selfish and I am one.
I talk more and sometimes my words can be not nice to be listen but at least i am speaking the truth.
Right or wrong is non to be judge. For everything i said there are valid reasons and proven.
I dont understand what does she mean that i dont take them or her as a friend? I dont treat them one?
For me what i think about friends when i really accept them was,
-I listened to her problems and i try my best to help her. 
-I am kinda playful and sometimes i might be playing too much. 
-I might be rude but i only scolded you "Bitch,please" for only once when you scolded me "Stupid". How about you scolding me the first time "Fuck" when i just need your help to verify the matter? You were so reluctant to do so. I asked you who ask me to check my phone (referring to Uv and the gang). What did you reply me? All you said were you dont know. Did you even bother to help? Friend is not like that. They will back each other up. Maybe sometimes i dont back you up but i do most of the times. The word "Fuck" was very offensive compared to those things i tweeted like what you claim "Kiddy Life" or "Chicken". Both of these are not very offensive compared to the word "Fuck" and "Stupid" which is extremely rude to be saying out verbally.
-My method of telling you people that something you do might be wrong but instead of being thankful that i corrected you, i was being hated. 
-I dont talk behind your back nor i dont backstab. I only complain. Like your hair dryer, maybe it is important for you. It is your want not your needs. If i am not being considerate enough, i wont be bothering to call the hotel the next day to check whether is there hair dryer but it is upon request and it is free of charge. You asked me do i have extra hair dryer, i said yes but only one. Of coz i wont let you bring down to hotel but i can borrow it to you when you are at my house. You never bother to ask. Maybe you are afraid to ask? I dont know. Maybe you think what i said here could be wrong, but think again. If i dont take you as a friend, sorry i wont even help you. Maybe you think this is not a friend should be doing like what you mean that the meaning of friendship for me and all of you were different. I dont understand what is friendship for you if doing a little things to help or even celebrating your birthday is not a friend should be doing then i think, yes i dont know what you want from me. 
-I cant make all of you happy but i will try my best. I dont have the sense of humor that i can make everyone laugh or be happy. If i was a friend to you all from the beginning, do you all pay attention on what i am talking everytime? Especially the closer one to me, i tried telling you my problems sometimes, cut out the studies part, and you will eventually ignore and continue with your part. That is also very offensive to me that you never respect when i talk. 
- I dont discuss your issue with people behind you. But sadly, you people are discussing me behind me. Instead of bracing yourself to come look up for me and ask me what i the problem, you chose to discuss with someone else? But you are brave and honest enough to come tell me that you guys were discussing about me. Do you know how i feel being a topic to be discussed? Friends dont discuss behind one's back instead ask them what is the problem. Like how you find my tweets are offensive to you eventhough i didnt mention who was i talking about. Honestly telling, i am seriously angry when all of you were discussing behind my back and was so proud of it. And that makes me feel bad throughout the trip. Did you guys bother to ask me why am i feeling agitated during the trip when some of you saw? None came and ask. If i dont take you as a friend, i can just leave all of you in the airport without bothering when i know you guys talk behind me. Seriously, friends dont do that. Instead, i am reminding myself maybe that is gonna be the last time but i see none.
-I am concern and not nosy. I correct you but i dont harm you. My attitude of being straight forward was not a good thing but at least i try to correct you. Or maybe i am wrong that you doesnt like people to correct you. You can just tell me not to be over concern. When you said that one of the senior talk dirty with you, i was mad and i asked you whats wrong. You sent me those chat history. I read it and find the problem is not with him but because of your one word. Maybe you dont like me judging you that you are wrong. His friendliness might be a little weird or odd but this is how people talk in the society. I was just trying to help based on what i experienced. How people talk to me outside was 10 times worst. I maybe over confident like what you said but actually i am not confident at all as what you all thought. I look up on strong evidence before i speak. I dont blindly correct people. Even though i know the meaning of horny but i am afraid that maybe i am wrong about the meaning. I actually went to check in the dictionary and find the definition of it. And come back telling you that was wrong on what you mean. When you told me that someone taught you that word, i was so mad that i actually posted a status in my Facebook. How i concern on my friends maybe that is wrong for you but i back them up.
-I dont gain a thing for being straight. I am just speaking out the truth on what i seen. Maybe you can say that what i said was wrong but have you try figure it out? I accept comments. If i dont, i have already bitch slap the person who blogged about me. I accept the comments from all of you. I just want to know the truth like how i speak the truth to all of you. Being a friend is not just about pleasing but make them as a family. I make all of you like a family because i dont ditch anyone of you. I accept your weaknesses. But none accept mine. I can be real wrong. I tried looking at your point of view, yes what i tweeted was absolutely wrong and rude, i apologized after i realised. You all make it as if i have killed someone you love or backstab behind you? Or maybe i steal your stuff? There is nothing that cannot be forgiven. Like how i forgive when you are so rude to me. I forget about it thats why i accept your apology for the word fuck and stupid. If you think both of that  was common then i think mine as well for the "Chicken and Kiddy Life". Chicken was only a term for coward and kiddy life was only for childish. My words are absolutely wrong, but what are those words with shit you and etc? I can take that as offensive as well. If you want someone to mind on what they are saying, mind yours first. I know you have stopped using the word fuck and stupid but you are unhappy with that. Remember what you tweeted when i was so angry of you saying i am stupid and that i make it such a big fuss? You said i am sensitive. I admit it, YES I AM. But are you not the same either? 


There is once a teacher told me that, each of everyone you met was a reflective to yourself. They are like mirrors for every character in you. When he told me that, i seriously dont agree with it and i was so angry back then. But i soon realised what my teacher told me was right. God is wise. He made every human to be reflective to one another. How they see them in one's character. I agree with that. You may not agree with me but you can take your time to think. I dont force you to be agree with what i said, afterall i dont gain a thing when you dont do that. Even if you do, i still dont gain anything. It is not that when you agree with what i said, the sky will drop some gold or cash to me. What do you think that i gain when i am being straight forward and try to correct? Seriously, nothing. You said you were tired and bored of asking me because it will lead to disappointment but honestly you dont. You blog about the first time i argue with you, and you make it as though it is my fault that i argue with you? Please correct your sentence. Spill the beans correctly whose fault was that? I wont simply argue with anyone if they didnt use fuck against me. And the funny thing was, you said you want that to be the last time we argue and you assume that. What is the next thing happened? You scolded me stupid? How nice of you for scolding me that and said i shouldnt be arguing? Back ache is not a excuse for not apologising on the spot when you knew you are wrong. I dont wanna argue either. Who is the one again and again using harsh word? The first was fuck and second was stupid? Really? And i was to be blame for arguing? Only those who are not wise enough will be in the same colony. Like a disease. You didnt ask them to side nor you didnt brainwash but you talk to them. It is indirectly. I will still continue to change but i think again friends like you treating me and push all the fault to me, i dont think we should continue either. And hell yeah, THE LAST ARGUMENT WAS MY FAULT AND I ABSOLUTELY AGREE THAT. Please stop discussing behinds one back. First was SY and now my turn just that my scenario was a lil worst because i stand out for myself. SY doesnt know a thing thats why she just keep quiet and angry of the trip. Be brave and tell her what you think about her and see how she react. If you wanna change the story that it was me behind it, dont worry go ahead because i believe in karma. And it is a sin. God will never protect you no matter how much you pray. Stop fooling people. SP might be wrong but her action was right for asking/forcing her groupmates to do even though she cant think of anything else to write. You can say that she is kiasu but she know that she is doing for her future and not to harm. Not that her marks didnt share with her groupmates. If she is mean, she can straight away  deduct your marks but she didnt. She is just scaring you. That is what i look from her perception. Maybe i was wrong but i personally thinks that she is good. And fooling people is not great. Just because she love BigBang and sometimes she is exaggerating but dont fool her alright. God is looking what is everyone doing. Have a great day ahead.


Oh ya, judge me all you can because i dont give a damn anymore. Spread all you can because only fool will listen to one side. Wise will be listening to both. And to those who is not involve in previous of my arguments, dont involve because you know nothing. I am rude in Twitter but i am not rude in real life. I wonder have anyone of you heard me scolding any of you FUCK. I dont think i have. Once again, SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE. 


When people do something nice no one can see but when someone do one mistake the whole world is against you. Human :)

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A change

Saturday, 26 May 2012 • 10:49:00 am • 0 comments

After the whole night of thoughts, yes i found out what is wrong, not all but at least i got the clue.

Maybe i dont take them as a real friends, i seriously dont know.

Maybe part of it yes because i care sometimes.

I am really grateful to have such good friends but i didnt appreciate the value of friendship they mean.

I guess i am a really an ass hole to everyone which bring pain to everyone.

I just dont know.

I dont want that kinda attitude as well. Without knowing how bad the disease was, how am i gonna treat myself?

I left clueless again. I always said i wanna change deep down in my heart. But everytime i just couldnt control myself on words. I said but i have no bad intention at all and i regretted after every word i said to hurt people. I felt it but i was over pride. I dont wanna lose face. Everytime after each things i said that i hurt most of you, i felt really bad. Just that i didnt show. It is not that i dont wanna change. It is difficult. But i will try to prove i can. I change it not all about friendship but myself as well. Looking back on Twitter on what i wrote, yeah I am kinda mean. But I regretted because i am using that way to provoke all of you to speak out the truth. Maybe it is the wrong method i use. I apologise for that.

I may be living in my own world fearing most of you have a motive against me. I used to think that way but i soon realised that i was wrong and i changed my mindset. I am over protective and sensitive.

Being straight forward is not everyone could accept. I am sorry/ I used to be like that and non show me the bad attitude and until all of you do. I appreciate that. I dont blame or hope because all of you have already hated me for what have i done to make so much pain in all of your life. Sorry that i make this one year horrible. I texted and try sending message through Facebook as well, none of you wanna reply but i dont lose hope. I treasure all of you. I apologise though it cant help but this is what i could do beside changing. I have done what i could. 

Twitter and Facebook was the main problem i wrote nasty things. So, i decided to deactivated all of it. Not because of you all but maybe this is a way to control myself from posting stuff that is such a pain in the ass. I am such a worst person that i sometimes dont wanna see myself either. I knew that you are helping me alot. I didnt forget and i did thank you before or maybe you cant remember, it is okay. But i still wanna thank you for doing so much things for me. Thanks alot. My life wouldnt be so fun without you girls. Too bad that i took the wrong step. Sorry for being so rude and inconsiderate. If you still take me as a close friend, i hope you all can be the lights to guide me out from the evil cave where i couldnt see myself clearly anymore. I was blinded with all the bad attitudes. For now, take care :)

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For all of you

Friday, 25 May 2012 • 9:43:00 pm • 0 comments

The stories behind of every bad habits.


Secondary 2
I have a bunch of good friends where we use to go to everywhere together. There is this time, i get close to this Indian girl. Her name was Roshini. Was really close to her that we shared most of the stories together. Everyone was so nice and we shared all the fun moments together. One weekend, all of us decided to go over Auto-City to have some fun that we tried some alcoholic drinks and she was drunk after a few glass and i was tipsy. Talking nonsense. She was all drunk and we bump into some seniors and the next day those seniors spread the news all over the school that she was so drunk that she talk nonsense. I swear that i didnt say anything about her because for me it is normal to get drunk and be a bit crazy in public. Arguments started because she said i am the one spreading rumours to everyone in school that she is drunk. Most of the seniors and half of the class was there to witnessed. And, instead of find out the truth she accused me for being the one who spreads it. One by one left me and i have no clue at all. I didnt talk behind anyone. Especially Yoong Sze, i honestly didnt talk behind your back until you done all those bad stuff upon me. From that day onwards, i lost some friends and was push off shore to survive without friends.


Upper 6-Graduation
I thought i was blessed with a very best friend again because she is also being ditched by her 11 years best friend. So, we gone through everything together and i trusted her. She was studying in KL and I was studying in Penang. So everytime when she is back in hometown, i will go out with her. Asking her wanna go where. I even drove her all the way to Penang just for shopping because i take this friendship seriously that i dont wanna lose such a great friend. When time passed by, everytime i asked her to fetch me or kind enough to bring me out for shopping when i am lazy to drive, she will definitely give me tonnes of excuses. When they have car they never bother wanna use their car. Another of my friend's parents even said that use her car la then you can save on petrol. On the first semester when i entered uni, we were still so close and even hang out once. I still remembered clearly that i told her to wait for me to watch Harry Potter together and she said yes. So, she promised. Was waiting for everyone to be free to watch together. She didnt even bother to tell me that she had already watched with her friends in uni. I was so sad because she waited till i asked her. I was so mad and she didnt even bother to apologize instead she said " Go and watch with your KL friends la". And then i just keep quiet. I was so sad and mad that i removed her and another friend from my Facebook and unfollowed them from Twitter. They dont even feel bad and they didnt even come and said sorry or ask why. Best of all during Chinese New Year this year, they went for a gathering and was gossiping about me. This is what i heard from another friend. This girl called Amanda, said that she was having exam and couldnt watch with me. Aiya, still cant watch again ma. I know still can watch again. Even if you wanna watch more than 10 times. But you promised and you broke it and then act like nothing. She promised earlier that she can but suddenly this year she said that time she having exam. What kind of excuse was that? Definitely you know when is your exam. There is an academic calender for every university/college even the cheapskate one. You went and promised me and suddenly Beginning of this year you said you are having exam then you couldnt watch. You didnt even explain when i was mad at you and you still can go on saying that "Go watch with your KL friends." Who wont feel hurt i ask anyone of you who read this. Especially to the best friend that you shared most of your stories with for 2years plus. 






These are the reasons why am i being so protective over myself. I can be very nice to you. It just need time for me to assure that you worth for me to treat you nice. Because of all the problems i faced, i am really traumatised. I used to be very sociable but when i faced something like that i became scared. They started spreading bad things about me. Until to the next school when i didnt do anything wrong. I had another friend who used to be very close as well, her name is Yen Nee. Was so closed that we went to each other's place. She even came to my house for overnight and we shared everything. And came this Indian girl, and this chinese girl doesnt even care because she is afraid that she will lose her popularity. The gang i was once with was the gang that is so popular in the whole BM town. Ask any school from BM, they will know who they are. Because of fame and popularity i was kicked aside. Was judged when i didnt even bother to say a word about that girl being drunk. I can be considerate just that i cant trust someone so easily because of what i experienced. Friend is a gift and it brings happiness. I even fought with my grandma because there is once she said i look up on friends more than family. I care for them more than my family and my grandma was so angry because everything i done is because of them. Even when i am choosing between art/science stream. I dont even mind fetching them to Penang when she is back and i dont even ask for money to pay toll and petrol. I still gotta fork out my own money to pay. And even the car park. I didnt say a thing at all. I paid. She saw i paid a large amount and she didnt even bother to help me to pay half. I was just a student back then and even now. Why cant anyone understand me that i am going through all these and think at my side? I still gotta lend some money from her to pay for my own food when she know i paid everything for the toll and etc. I still have to pay her back for godsake. When she went out, did she bother to ask me out as well? Anyone bother? 


Leo was my ex and now we are best friend and couldnt go on to relationship because he wants to focus more on studies. We fought more than everyone could ever imagine. Why he still never leave me when i threw tantrum and stuff? Cut out the one he still loves me. Another thing was he understands me. We have been ups and downs for the past 3 years. We even argue till we didnt talk to each other for more than 4months. I can be really nice to people but i lose confident after each and everytime i am being used. I look up on friendship more than family and even my boyfriend. I listened to them and let them critize and never said a word to fight back because i knew they hated him so much but i have no idea why. Friends are like part of my life. It blends in my blood but i was crushed. Bloods was sucked. I dare not go beyond close friends. I started staying in no true friends world until someone i just knew told me that friends are not for benefit and there are true friends. I was searching. I am afraid that i make the wrong choice again. I was very careful. I knew you done your best to prove it to me. I have seen all that but again i felt terror in me. Until a certain part in life, you have proven to me that not all are like that. When i actually started to believe it, i lose it again. Sorry for those bad habits, i just need time to change. I cant just change in a year. Even trusting you all, i took more than half year to realise to feel the moment of friendship. I guess, if you really wanna end this friendship, i have no word to say. Besides, i am really sorry for causing so much pain. 

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