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After a days of thoughts on what she wrote on her blog, i was dumbfounded. I realised that what are friends to her and what are friends to me. Sometimes people tend to be selfish and I am one. I talk more and sometimes my words can be not nice to be listen but at least i am speaking the truth. Right or wrong is non to be judge. For everything i said there are valid reasons and proven. I dont understand what does she mean that i dont take them or her as a friend? I dont treat them one? For me what i think about friends when i really accept them was, -I listened to her problems and i try my best to help her. -I am kinda playful and sometimes i might be playing too much. -I might be rude but i only scolded you "Bitch,please" for only once when you scolded me "Stupid". How about you scolding me the first time "Fuck" when i just need your help to verify the matter? You were so reluctant to do so. I asked you who ask me to check my phone (referring to Uv and the gang). What did you reply me? All you said were you dont know. Did you even bother to help? Friend is not like that. They will back each other up. Maybe sometimes i dont back you up but i do most of the times. The word "Fuck" was very offensive compared to those things i tweeted like what you claim "Kiddy Life" or "Chicken". Both of these are not very offensive compared to the word "Fuck" and "Stupid" which is extremely rude to be saying out verbally. -My method of telling you people that something you do might be wrong but instead of being thankful that i corrected you, i was being hated. -I dont talk behind your back nor i dont backstab. I only complain. Like your hair dryer, maybe it is important for you. It is your want not your needs. If i am not being considerate enough, i wont be bothering to call the hotel the next day to check whether is there hair dryer but it is upon request and it is free of charge. You asked me do i have extra hair dryer, i said yes but only one. Of coz i wont let you bring down to hotel but i can borrow it to you when you are at my house. You never bother to ask. Maybe you are afraid to ask? I dont know. Maybe you think what i said here could be wrong, but think again. If i dont take you as a friend, sorry i wont even help you. Maybe you think this is not a friend should be doing like what you mean that the meaning of friendship for me and all of you were different. I dont understand what is friendship for you if doing a little things to help or even celebrating your birthday is not a friend should be doing then i think, yes i dont know what you want from me. -I cant make all of you happy but i will try my best. I dont have the sense of humor that i can make everyone laugh or be happy. If i was a friend to you all from the beginning, do you all pay attention on what i am talking everytime? Especially the closer one to me, i tried telling you my problems sometimes, cut out the studies part, and you will eventually ignore and continue with your part. That is also very offensive to me that you never respect when i talk. - I dont discuss your issue with people behind you. But sadly, you people are discussing me behind me. Instead of bracing yourself to come look up for me and ask me what i the problem, you chose to discuss with someone else? But you are brave and honest enough to come tell me that you guys were discussing about me. Do you know how i feel being a topic to be discussed? Friends dont discuss behind one's back instead ask them what is the problem. Like how you find my tweets are offensive to you eventhough i didnt mention who was i talking about. Honestly telling, i am seriously angry when all of you were discussing behind my back and was so proud of it. And that makes me feel bad throughout the trip. Did you guys bother to ask me why am i feeling agitated during the trip when some of you saw? None came and ask. If i dont take you as a friend, i can just leave all of you in the airport without bothering when i know you guys talk behind me. Seriously, friends dont do that. Instead, i am reminding myself maybe that is gonna be the last time but i see none. -I am concern and not nosy. I correct you but i dont harm you. My attitude of being straight forward was not a good thing but at least i try to correct you. Or maybe i am wrong that you doesnt like people to correct you. You can just tell me not to be over concern. When you said that one of the senior talk dirty with you, i was mad and i asked you whats wrong. You sent me those chat history. I read it and find the problem is not with him but because of your one word. Maybe you dont like me judging you that you are wrong. His friendliness might be a little weird or odd but this is how people talk in the society. I was just trying to help based on what i experienced. How people talk to me outside was 10 times worst. I maybe over confident like what you said but actually i am not confident at all as what you all thought. I look up on strong evidence before i speak. I dont blindly correct people. Even though i know the meaning of horny but i am afraid that maybe i am wrong about the meaning. I actually went to check in the dictionary and find the definition of it. And come back telling you that was wrong on what you mean. When you told me that someone taught you that word, i was so mad that i actually posted a status in my Facebook. How i concern on my friends maybe that is wrong for you but i back them up. -I dont gain a thing for being straight. I am just speaking out the truth on what i seen. Maybe you can say that what i said was wrong but have you try figure it out? I accept comments. If i dont, i have already bitch slap the person who blogged about me. I accept the comments from all of you. I just want to know the truth like how i speak the truth to all of you. Being a friend is not just about pleasing but make them as a family. I make all of you like a family because i dont ditch anyone of you. I accept your weaknesses. But none accept mine. I can be real wrong. I tried looking at your point of view, yes what i tweeted was absolutely wrong and rude, i apologized after i realised. You all make it as if i have killed someone you love or backstab behind you? Or maybe i steal your stuff? There is nothing that cannot be forgiven. Like how i forgive when you are so rude to me. I forget about it thats why i accept your apology for the word fuck and stupid. If you think both of that was common then i think mine as well for the "Chicken and Kiddy Life". Chicken was only a term for coward and kiddy life was only for childish. My words are absolutely wrong, but what are those words with shit you and etc? I can take that as offensive as well. If you want someone to mind on what they are saying, mind yours first. I know you have stopped using the word fuck and stupid but you are unhappy with that. Remember what you tweeted when i was so angry of you saying i am stupid and that i make it such a big fuss? You said i am sensitive. I admit it, YES I AM. But are you not the same either? There is once a teacher told me that, each of everyone you met was a reflective to yourself. They are like mirrors for every character in you. When he told me that, i seriously dont agree with it and i was so angry back then. But i soon realised what my teacher told me was right. God is wise. He made every human to be reflective to one another. How they see them in one's character. I agree with that. You may not agree with me but you can take your time to think. I dont force you to be agree with what i said, afterall i dont gain a thing when you dont do that. Even if you do, i still dont gain anything. It is not that when you agree with what i said, the sky will drop some gold or cash to me. What do you think that i gain when i am being straight forward and try to correct? Seriously, nothing. You said you were tired and bored of asking me because it will lead to disappointment but honestly you dont. You blog about the first time i argue with you, and you make it as though it is my fault that i argue with you? Please correct your sentence. Spill the beans correctly whose fault was that? I wont simply argue with anyone if they didnt use fuck against me. And the funny thing was, you said you want that to be the last time we argue and you assume that. What is the next thing happened? You scolded me stupid? How nice of you for scolding me that and said i shouldnt be arguing? Back ache is not a excuse for not apologising on the spot when you knew you are wrong. I dont wanna argue either. Who is the one again and again using harsh word? The first was fuck and second was stupid? Really? And i was to be blame for arguing? Only those who are not wise enough will be in the same colony. Like a disease. You didnt ask them to side nor you didnt brainwash but you talk to them. It is indirectly. I will still continue to change but i think again friends like you treating me and push all the fault to me, i dont think we should continue either. And hell yeah, THE LAST ARGUMENT WAS MY FAULT AND I ABSOLUTELY AGREE THAT. Please stop discussing behinds one back. First was SY and now my turn just that my scenario was a lil worst because i stand out for myself. SY doesnt know a thing thats why she just keep quiet and angry of the trip. Be brave and tell her what you think about her and see how she react. If you wanna change the story that it was me behind it, dont worry go ahead because i believe in karma. And it is a sin. God will never protect you no matter how much you pray. Stop fooling people. SP might be wrong but her action was right for asking/forcing her groupmates to do even though she cant think of anything else to write. You can say that she is kiasu but she know that she is doing for her future and not to harm. Not that her marks didnt share with her groupmates. If she is mean, she can straight away deduct your marks but she didnt. She is just scaring you. That is what i look from her perception. Maybe i was wrong but i personally thinks that she is good. And fooling people is not great. Just because she love BigBang and sometimes she is exaggerating but dont fool her alright. God is looking what is everyone doing. Have a great day ahead. Oh ya, judge me all you can because i dont give a damn anymore. Spread all you can because only fool will listen to one side. Wise will be listening to both. And to those who is not involve in previous of my arguments, dont involve because you know nothing. I am rude in Twitter but i am not rude in real life. I wonder have anyone of you heard me scolding any of you FUCK. I dont think i have. Once again, SORRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLE. When people do something nice no one can see but when someone do one mistake the whole world is against you. Human :) Labels: Life  |  |
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